I see you, when i see you.

Till then.

:)

by Abdul Ghani Hamid

-----------------------------

translated by Isa Kamari

There isn't any Silat training yet.
I'm not prepared for the upcoming friendly.
Lazy bummer when it comes to hitting the tracks.
So i made 2 choice; Swimming & Gym.

Been hitting the gym quite frequent recently.
Goodness i really miss the environment.
Concentrating more on the upper body.

So i was hoping for some random people to come across and ask that typical question,
"Have you been hitting the gym honey?"

But instead, i've been getting alot of the,
"Damn, you really have a nice ass Syarif"

Oh come on, give me a break.
Knock it off. I get it!
How many times must i answer,
" I got it from my momma "

Well I'm bringing sexyback,

Yeahhh!!!~

teehee ;D

Stage 1. 2. 3. 4.

Ikhtiar. Doa. Tawakkal. Redha.

Effort. Prayer. Resignation. Contentment.

I never knew how much i have put in at the 1st stage at times.
That's when i realised that i should have done more.

Trying my best to fulfill the 2nd one. Because only He has the answers to all.

The 3rd stage is the part where i hafta to wait.
Came along Ms. Worriment and Ms. Question Mark joining me.

And finally the last one.
Has always been the hardest part.

To all the values that i learnt and applied.
Somehow it makes the heavy heart feels a lil bit lighter.
& i keep telling myself, Patience has its Reward.

-------------------------

I'm not angry.
Why should i?

-------------------------

I'll try, even if.
I am not ready to stop worrying about you.
Somebody slap my face & tell me to forget about you please.

-------------------------


I'm Okay.....

if that's what you want me to say.

A random selection of contacts in my phonebook.
(about 20plus i think)
Mainly those who are meaningful to my life.
I apologise if i might have missed out some of you friends out there.
Consists of both Genders.
At 2 different timings.
The only thing that i sent to this group of people was simply just

Obviously, not each and everyone of them replied.
As i expected, some of those whom i was hoping for a reply, sadly did not.
However surprisingly, some replies are from the unexpected ones!

I'm curious. How would people respond to such randomness.
MY randomness, to be exact.
Some would think that it's really lame.
Most of them replied with a Question mark. Not knowing what's going on.

The first person to reply me asked,
" So who has the worst response? I bet it's mine! *chuckles* "

I said,
" No, it's not yours. To me the worst response were all those who DID NOT even respond. Especially those whom i was hoping would reply me with interesting responses, sadly Did Not. "

Well i'm not gonna be too judgmental on those who did not replied because some of them might have reasonable reasons, like their phones are down or whatsoever. But how about those you simply just didn't bother to text back?
That, i wonder.

I wonder what kind of a friend they are to me. Or perhaps, more precisely, who am i to them.
By looking back again at some of those responses i get from some of them up there, somewhat gave me a picture of what kind of a person they are. How close am i to their lovely hearts.

Up till now, i still feel that those 2 persons who replied me with just a simple smiley back are the Best reply i ever wished for. I was sharing a cab back home with one of them the night before and the last time i met the other one was almost a month back. Yes, a simple and sincere smile back at me is all i was hoping for!
How hard is that?

Many would say that i'm the kind of a person who is always ready with a sincere smile.
One told me that i'm contagious. When i'm happy, people around me will turn happy as well.
The close ones are those who would surely know that i haven't been bringing along with me that smile of mine lately. They kept asking me, " What's wrong? ".

You may say that it's really Lame, Nonsense or even Pathetic of me with such randomness.
But to me, it's somehow one of the ways i made a Realisation towards my Surroundings.
My Life with Colourful Friends.

Now tag something, if you're one of those who received a smiley from me.
:)

*shrugs*

---------------------------------------------------------------------
My all-time favourite sweetheart when it comes to watching those old malay movies;

Luckily you very old already, if not i tackle you yannow
lol ^^

I'm sorry for being selfish lately. I have abandon my responsibilities as a man for more than a month already. I didn't mean to forget about you. I'm really sorry because i keep procrastinating all those wonderful things that i was supposed to do to ensure that you are always with me. I hate myself for treating you like this. The more you keep fading away from me, the more it kills me. Please forgive me baby. Give me a little bit more time. Give me a second chance for me to regain back all my strength so i can be with you again. I beg you not to leave me. I can't imagine myself without you, my beautiful abs.
:(

Today started out to be really good.
Mixing with a bunch of positive people.
Sharing Opinions and Knowledge.
But the moment i reached home, it felt the other way round.
HOME is supposed to be peaceful isn't it?

That's it.
I'm going back to Granny's tomorrow.

Eh! Eh! Eh! Eh!
:D

How would you feel?

If one day you realised that it's gone.
The spark. It's just slowly fading away.
Knowing that you can't reignite the flame that you once had.
In your heart.

How would you feel if it's gone again.
This time round.

I'm not supposed to look back.
But at the same time, i'm really scared to look forward.
It makes me feel like i'm just a little boy who knows nothing about life.
I guess i'm still am a little boy.
At heart.

5 down, 2 to go.

I can't wait for my holiday.

It's getting near. Really near.

So what's gonna happen next?

Oh boy, i've already have quite a busy schedule jotted down till April.

Well there's more to be added to that busy schedule already.

They had their say.

Shouting out their opinions straight from their mind & heart.

Those are the close ones, whom i seldom spent time with.

Proud to see how i've been doing all these while.

But at the same time, disappointment.

I'll still try to dig some time out of my schedule for them

For myself at least.

Yes, i need time for myself first.

Then there's surely time for people whom are important to my life.

& also a space for someone special to share a part of my life.

I'll try my best

:)

“So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.”

The fist & knuckles just went straight to the metal cupboard.
There's a little dent there.
Now that's anger from deep inside.
Overwhelming Anger = Potential Energy
Which could generate quite alot of Kinetic Energy.

In all honesty, I can't wait to get it over and done with.
Cause the feeling is killing me softly on the inside.

Maybe one day I'll write pages,
about how I'm always try to fight the feelings that coincide.

*Ayah watching James Bond - Tomorrow Never Dies all night*
*Ibu tired & sleepy finishing her work*

Ibu never fails to make me laugh with her random lameshits.
Especially when she's sleepy.
& watching tv with Ayah has always been a bad idea.
He never fails to behave as if he's the director.
*while watching Projek Cerpen with him just now*
"Eh anak kau lari rumah dah balik pe. Tak payah nak kecoh2 ah beb!"
:D

I find that the previous post is somehow a little too much of details.

So i deleted some parts of it.

-----------------------------------------------

Saturday's friendly match with NYP was a great experience.
Getting my ass kicked is the best way for me to reflect & learn.

----------------------------------------------

I'm so pissed with my maid.
She thinks she's the boss now since she's been long enough with us already.
Still wanna threaten me?
Bring it on.
I'm not afraid of you.

-----------------------------------------------

The part where i have to bare with all this aching pain.
Bruises.
It is so not nice.

------------------------------------------------

I'm getting addicted to your voice.
:)

-------------------------------------------------

I'm putting aside all my problems.
I'm putting aside all my pain.
Because i know,
I'm Happy
:)

The biggest scar still remains the same.
While here i am preparing a new knife to have another deep cut.
I simply need more faith in these kind of feelings.

& still hate the fact when the close ones would simply notice it
easily while i simply dont realised how much strange im behaving lately.
All i could say was,
" I'm Okay "

Today i went to the school library.
Today is the longest time i spent at the school library as a Poly student.
No, i wasn't busy searching for books.
Neither was i flirting with any of the librarians.
Today i borrowed Twilight Blu Ray CD from the library.
So i spent 2 hours in the library watching Twilight movie.

I know, i'm so lagged behind, Twilight is so yesterday.
New Moon was out quite some time even.
But hey, guess what!
I'm not a fan of all this vampire story at all but i really did enjoyed watching the movie!
However, i still feel that Edward Cullen acting is kinda weird.
I don't know if Robert Patterson can't act properly or he's just doing what the director ask him to.
But i like the movie.
And oh, i really feel that Jacob looked like a freaking gay with that bloody long hair in Twilight.

The End

--------------------------------------------------------

"Someone" simply have to stop me from enjoying my wonderful dream
for the past few days and ask me to wake up.
Kinda heart-breaking though, having to put aside my lovely msPillow and hit the shower.
But guess what, i've been coming to class quite early than before actually.
That's good!

& i kinda like having to hear the voice every morning actually.
It gives a good headstart for the day.
:)

Weekends are the only time we get to spent time teasing and laughing at each other.
Prrecious Family Time.

--------------------------------------------------------

Prettiest Friend - Jason Mraz

" i wrote this for my prettiest friend
who while trying not to prove that i care
trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away
well she can't see she's making me crazy now
i don't believe she knows she's amazing how
she has me holding my breathe
so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for her

but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is complimentery
and oh it goes to show
the moral of the story is boy loves girl
and so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told "

*bites lip*

------------------------------------------------------------------------
Since yesterday morning.
I've never felt this bad before.
Entire body aching.
Too much painful.
That as if i've never had a body ache before.
I feel like vomiting.
I feel like i'm gonna collapsed anytime.
Oh well, i've been pretending way too much i guess.
Always trying hard to hide the pain.
That's the problem with me.

*opps, i blog about it anyway*

Back then when i was 6 years old plus.
1st day of Primary school.
Crying & begging dad not to leave me once we reached the school gate.
& because of that, THE SCHOOL PRINCIPAL was kind enough to fetch
lil Syarif from the school gate and bring him to the hall, for a week!
Yes, how special right? ^^
Just how shiny can a Primary 1 boy's forehead be huh?
Lol xD

Well i can't remember where's that schoolbag of mine is now.
High socks was the IN-thing.
The jendol still here to stay.
The orchids are obviously dead.
& that's 10 years ago!

^But as for these 2 darlings of mine.
Nelly & Qistina.
It's their turn now!
I hope my two lovely nieces enjoyed their 1st day of primary school.
They are way much brave & smart than i was.
I'm sure they didnt cry.
Because they promised me they won't.


How fast time flies right?
Oh yes,
hello Mr. 2010
;)

I see you, when i see you.

Till then.

:)

by Abdul Ghani Hamid

-----------------------------

translated by Isa Kamari

There isn't any Silat training yet.
I'm not prepared for the upcoming friendly.
Lazy bummer when it comes to hitting the tracks.
So i made 2 choice; Swimming & Gym.

Been hitting the gym quite frequent recently.
Goodness i really miss the environment.
Concentrating more on the upper body.

So i was hoping for some random people to come across and ask that typical question,
"Have you been hitting the gym honey?"

But instead, i've been getting alot of the,
"Damn, you really have a nice ass Syarif"

Oh come on, give me a break.
Knock it off. I get it!
How many times must i answer,
" I got it from my momma "

Well I'm bringing sexyback,

Yeahhh!!!~

teehee ;D

Stage 1. 2. 3. 4.

Ikhtiar. Doa. Tawakkal. Redha.

Effort. Prayer. Resignation. Contentment.

I never knew how much i have put in at the 1st stage at times.
That's when i realised that i should have done more.

Trying my best to fulfill the 2nd one. Because only He has the answers to all.

The 3rd stage is the part where i hafta to wait.
Came along Ms. Worriment and Ms. Question Mark joining me.

And finally the last one.
Has always been the hardest part.

To all the values that i learnt and applied.
Somehow it makes the heavy heart feels a lil bit lighter.
& i keep telling myself, Patience has its Reward.

-------------------------

I'm not angry.
Why should i?

-------------------------

I'll try, even if.
I am not ready to stop worrying about you.
Somebody slap my face & tell me to forget about you please.

-------------------------


I'm Okay.....

if that's what you want me to say.

A random selection of contacts in my phonebook.
(about 20plus i think)
Mainly those who are meaningful to my life.
I apologise if i might have missed out some of you friends out there.
Consists of both Genders.
At 2 different timings.
The only thing that i sent to this group of people was simply just

Obviously, not each and everyone of them replied.
As i expected, some of those whom i was hoping for a reply, sadly did not.
However surprisingly, some replies are from the unexpected ones!

I'm curious. How would people respond to such randomness.
MY randomness, to be exact.
Some would think that it's really lame.
Most of them replied with a Question mark. Not knowing what's going on.

The first person to reply me asked,
" So who has the worst response? I bet it's mine! *chuckles* "

I said,
" No, it's not yours. To me the worst response were all those who DID NOT even respond. Especially those whom i was hoping would reply me with interesting responses, sadly Did Not. "

Well i'm not gonna be too judgmental on those who did not replied because some of them might have reasonable reasons, like their phones are down or whatsoever. But how about those you simply just didn't bother to text back?
That, i wonder.

I wonder what kind of a friend they are to me. Or perhaps, more precisely, who am i to them.
By looking back again at some of those responses i get from some of them up there, somewhat gave me a picture of what kind of a person they are. How close am i to their lovely hearts.

Up till now, i still feel that those 2 persons who replied me with just a simple smiley back are the Best reply i ever wished for. I was sharing a cab back home with one of them the night before and the last time i met the other one was almost a month back. Yes, a simple and sincere smile back at me is all i was hoping for!
How hard is that?

Many would say that i'm the kind of a person who is always ready with a sincere smile.
One told me that i'm contagious. When i'm happy, people around me will turn happy as well.
The close ones are those who would surely know that i haven't been bringing along with me that smile of mine lately. They kept asking me, " What's wrong? ".

You may say that it's really Lame, Nonsense or even Pathetic of me with such randomness.
But to me, it's somehow one of the ways i made a Realisation towards my Surroundings.
My Life with Colourful Friends.

Now tag something, if you're one of those who received a smiley from me.
:)

*shrugs*

---------------------------------------------------------------------
My all-time favourite sweetheart when it comes to watching those old malay movies;

Luckily you very old already, if not i tackle you yannow
lol ^^

I'm sorry for being selfish lately. I have abandon my responsibilities as a man for more than a month already. I didn't mean to forget about you. I'm really sorry because i keep procrastinating all those wonderful things that i was supposed to do to ensure that you are always with me. I hate myself for treating you like this. The more you keep fading away from me, the more it kills me. Please forgive me baby. Give me a little bit more time. Give me a second chance for me to regain back all my strength so i can be with you again. I beg you not to leave me. I can't imagine myself without you, my beautiful abs.
:(

Today started out to be really good.
Mixing with a bunch of positive people.
Sharing Opinions and Knowledge.
But the moment i reached home, it felt the other way round.
HOME is supposed to be peaceful isn't it?

That's it.
I'm going back to Granny's tomorrow.

Eh! Eh! Eh! Eh!
:D

How would you feel?

If one day you realised that it's gone.
The spark. It's just slowly fading away.
Knowing that you can't reignite the flame that you once had.
In your heart.

How would you feel if it's gone again.
This time round.

I'm not supposed to look back.
But at the same time, i'm really scared to look forward.
It makes me feel like i'm just a little boy who knows nothing about life.
I guess i'm still am a little boy.
At heart.

5 down, 2 to go.

I can't wait for my holiday.

It's getting near. Really near.

So what's gonna happen next?

Oh boy, i've already have quite a busy schedule jotted down till April.

Well there's more to be added to that busy schedule already.

They had their say.

Shouting out their opinions straight from their mind & heart.

Those are the close ones, whom i seldom spent time with.

Proud to see how i've been doing all these while.

But at the same time, disappointment.

I'll still try to dig some time out of my schedule for them

For myself at least.

Yes, i need time for myself first.

Then there's surely time for people whom are important to my life.

& also a space for someone special to share a part of my life.

I'll try my best

:)

“So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.”

The fist & knuckles just went straight to the metal cupboard.
There's a little dent there.
Now that's anger from deep inside.
Overwhelming Anger = Potential Energy
Which could generate quite alot of Kinetic Energy.

In all honesty, I can't wait to get it over and done with.
Cause the feeling is killing me softly on the inside.

Maybe one day I'll write pages,
about how I'm always try to fight the feelings that coincide.

*Ayah watching James Bond - Tomorrow Never Dies all night*
*Ibu tired & sleepy finishing her work*

Ibu never fails to make me laugh with her random lameshits.
Especially when she's sleepy.
& watching tv with Ayah has always been a bad idea.
He never fails to behave as if he's the director.
*while watching Projek Cerpen with him just now*
"Eh anak kau lari rumah dah balik pe. Tak payah nak kecoh2 ah beb!"
:D

I find that the previous post is somehow a little too much of details.

So i deleted some parts of it.

-----------------------------------------------

Saturday's friendly match with NYP was a great experience.
Getting my ass kicked is the best way for me to reflect & learn.

----------------------------------------------

I'm so pissed with my maid.
She thinks she's the boss now since she's been long enough with us already.
Still wanna threaten me?
Bring it on.
I'm not afraid of you.

-----------------------------------------------

The part where i have to bare with all this aching pain.
Bruises.
It is so not nice.

------------------------------------------------

I'm getting addicted to your voice.
:)

-------------------------------------------------

I'm putting aside all my problems.
I'm putting aside all my pain.
Because i know,
I'm Happy
:)

The biggest scar still remains the same.
While here i am preparing a new knife to have another deep cut.
I simply need more faith in these kind of feelings.

& still hate the fact when the close ones would simply notice it
easily while i simply dont realised how much strange im behaving lately.
All i could say was,
" I'm Okay "

Today i went to the school library.
Today is the longest time i spent at the school library as a Poly student.
No, i wasn't busy searching for books.
Neither was i flirting with any of the librarians.
Today i borrowed Twilight Blu Ray CD from the library.
So i spent 2 hours in the library watching Twilight movie.

I know, i'm so lagged behind, Twilight is so yesterday.
New Moon was out quite some time even.
But hey, guess what!
I'm not a fan of all this vampire story at all but i really did enjoyed watching the movie!
However, i still feel that Edward Cullen acting is kinda weird.
I don't know if Robert Patterson can't act properly or he's just doing what the director ask him to.
But i like the movie.
And oh, i really feel that Jacob looked like a freaking gay with that bloody long hair in Twilight.

The End

--------------------------------------------------------

"Someone" simply have to stop me from enjoying my wonderful dream
for the past few days and ask me to wake up.
Kinda heart-breaking though, having to put aside my lovely msPillow and hit the shower.
But guess what, i've been coming to class quite early than before actually.
That's good!

& i kinda like having to hear the voice every morning actually.
It gives a good headstart for the day.
:)

Weekends are the only time we get to spent time teasing and laughing at each other.
Prrecious Family Time.

--------------------------------------------------------

Prettiest Friend - Jason Mraz

" i wrote this for my prettiest friend
who while trying not to prove that i care
trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away
well she can't see she's making me crazy now
i don't believe she knows she's amazing how
she has me holding my breathe
so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for her

but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is complimentery
and oh it goes to show
the moral of the story is boy loves girl
and so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told "

*bites lip*

------------------------------------------------------------------------
Since yesterday morning.
I've never felt this bad before.
Entire body aching.
Too much painful.
That as if i've never had a body ache before.
I feel like vomiting.
I feel like i'm gonna collapsed anytime.
Oh well, i've been pretending way too much i guess.
Always trying hard to hide the pain.
That's the problem with me.

*opps, i blog about it anyway*

Back then when i was 6 years old plus.
1st day of Primary school.
Crying & begging dad not to leave me once we reached the school gate.
& because of that, THE SCHOOL PRINCIPAL was kind enough to fetch
lil Syarif from the school gate and bring him to the hall, for a week!
Yes, how special right? ^^
Just how shiny can a Primary 1 boy's forehead be huh?
Lol xD

Well i can't remember where's that schoolbag of mine is now.
High socks was the IN-thing.
The jendol still here to stay.
The orchids are obviously dead.
& that's 10 years ago!

^But as for these 2 darlings of mine.
Nelly & Qistina.
It's their turn now!
I hope my two lovely nieces enjoyed their 1st day of primary school.
They are way much brave & smart than i was.
I'm sure they didnt cry.
Because they promised me they won't.


How fast time flies right?
Oh yes,
hello Mr. 2010
;)