MR. TOO NICE :



credits to Wano, she got it from tumblr for me.

& to think of it.
I kinda feel glad yannow. Because i'm just a Mr. Nice Guy instead of Mr. Too Nice.
Because some parts of the details up there doesn't applies to me.
:)

Busy as a bumblebee.
Oh no, i'm not going from "flower" to "flower".
I'm just busy with my schedule.
Part of me loves it. Being able to mix around with lots people.
But another part of me hates it as well.
I hate having to turn down offers. Especially from the love ones.
I'll get this problem fixed.
I'm on a hiatus people.
Just be patient.
:)

Muzikaraya was a Blast!
Pak Eh was enjoying every second on and off stage!
Each & everyone of us definitely did have one hell of a night!
Drama Theatre, acting live in front of hundreds of people.
Way much challenging, having to interact with the audience.
To make them feel how you feel.
The Anger. Sadness. & especially the Laughter.
Almost all the cast were first-timers.
But we managed to pull it through!
I'm so proud of everyone!
Definitely, one of the best memories i had so far in Poly life :)
^Those days when we trained really hard.

^ Hours before the show

^ My Gerek personal Make-up artist.
Dirt Bike Dude.

^ My favorite motivator.
Always with her, " You okay or not Syarif?"
Arrrrrr
xD

^ Now that's why i call a last minute script re-cap.

^ & that's what i do to destress at the back stage!

^ Syarif as Pak Eh


^Sang Singa Purba a.k.a SSP

However, on a personal note.
I went back home reflecting on my performance all night.
It feels really good to get lots of compliments from those who watched me.
From family, friends, veterans actors.
Muzikaraya was also a platform for me to determine where i stand.
Oh boy, i must admit that i have lots of things to learn from.
Improve myself, to reach a way much higher standard.
Somewhere people expect me to be some day.
That's my goal.
:)

Now school is back for me!
Kinda weird though starting 1 week later than the rest.
Missing those days during the holidays.
Spending time practicing from 10am till 10pm every single day.
Wonderful experience. Fantastic bunch of people.
Now that's what i call expanding my Network larger.
I'm loving it!


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I love random stuffs.
Who doesn't?
My random meet-up with my dear Turhana yesterday was really great right?!
Head up to Clarke Quay after school to meet her after her work.
The long chit-chats and catching up.
Oh boy, we do have lots of stories to share didn't we?
Now that's the reason why i never get bored with my Hana.
She's the one i know who's matured enough to share opinions n stuff.
My decade friend. One of the longest friend i have up till now.
From the kindergarten us, to the all-grown up young adult.

Its good that we're still holding a bond together ever since back in Kindergarten, thas like a decade ago! :) All grown up eh? And that we're able to share secrets and our life experience without being so shy and awkward.

I shall find another day to make myself free for another meet-up yeah?
No worries!

That's for now readers
:)

Greeting Readers!
It has been really hectic for me during this Semester holiday for me.
Really busy, packed schedule like i've mentioned before.
& its all about the Priceless experience, Fabulous Fun & Wonderful people.
I've told you i've got a bloody tight schedule right?

Where shall i start?
Each & every single event was something that i was really looking forward to.
& i'm greatfully glad that i enjoyed every single moment of it!


Last But not least the most important thing of all.
The reason why i come to sch almost every day from 10am to 10pm.
Sang Singa Purba's Muzikaraya Production which is next Friday,23rd Oct.
The biggest event of my life, an opportunity for me to prove to my family & friends.
Something that i'm really interested in.
A potential talent, according to my seniors.
It's my time to shine.

More details about it? Check this out.
http://www.sangsingapurba.com
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=171305616334

I might have missed out some of the things i had somehow. Like all those random meet-ups & stuff at the very last minute. Im proud that i managed to handle the busy schedule. Although some of my friends felt that the schedule was like digging my own grave. Yes, it is really tiring and i am totally shagged. But it's not over yet!

& of course, there's so many other things that i had no choice but to turn them down.
Friends even had to schedule an appointment with me a week beforehand just to ensure i could fit it into my existing schedule. Some of them even had birthday surprises planned for me but it didn't happened all because of my busy schedule. It's really not nice replying to every single of them saying that i can't make it. & i'm really sorry for all that guys.
I'll try to make it up soon when i'm free.
:)
------------------------------------------------------------------------------

sometimes, even a song reminds us of the past.
a song that USED TO mean alot to us.
but when sometimes that song suddenly tunes up in ur shuffled playlist.
we wished that song never exist.
& now, its on repeat again.
it's just a song.
perhaps.

It was GREAT!

I've been gone for a week.

But when i came back, i still see all those nonsense stuff on my tagboard.

From the SAME OLD PEOPLE again.

(IP Address tells it all)

:)

Well it's really up to you yannow.

You bloody faggots are way gone together with my past.

I don't give a heck to a bunch of you at all.

Just a bunch of Toxic Friends I've had in the past.

You can still think that i'm the "Step Gerek" kinda person or whatsoever.

Still not satisfied?

Just take a look at these photos of mine taken from this week that i've been gone.

Just look at how happy that lucky guy is in that picture.

No Doubt, that guy in that pictures, is enjoying EVERY SINGLE OF IT.

Well there's more to come yannow & people still keep tagging pics on my FB.

To my Gerek Readers, stay tuned for more pictures and a proper post of my wonderful week.

Kudos!

^ Earle Swensen

^ Rock Chiq

^ FZL Dude

^THEY, are the ones that make me smile and
left me with tears of Joy on my festive days.
Lotsa Love my sisters.
:)

I wonder WHY.
I still wonder why...

I am being myself, the Syarif i know.
All sorts of effort being put in.
With full sincerity from the bottom of my heart.
In order to Impress.
In order to Gain trust.
In order to Prove who i am.
In order to Win the hearts.
Of any particular person.

But the fact that i've always fail to achieve it.
Instead, it's the community/people around that particular person.
I'm trying my best to earn your trust.
But I never managed to get that.
But to the whole lot of others, i'm good enough that someone like you could ever ask for.
Why can many of them see that, BUT NOT YOU?
What issit about me that you are not convinced yet?
What?
Why?

Oh God, why is it so difficult for this particular person to see it?
Instead, it's the others that are way much convinced.
They are the ones whom i never expect to understand me, did.
But you, whom i've been hoping for, never could.

What's even worst?
There's more than just ONE particular person i'm facing now.
Situations are simply the same again & again.
The ones i expect much never did.
But the others around me are the ones with positive response.
Should i feel way much relieved?
Knowing that the world understands and agrees with me,
but still not those whom i've expected to.

Save Me From Myself.
As a Son to a Mother.
As a Son to a Father.
As a Grandson to a Grandmother.
As a Brother to the Elder one.
As a Nephew to an Uncle.
As a Friend to a Friend.
As a Humble Boy to a Precious Girl, like you.
As Syarif.


We ask God for a Sunny day, but He gives us Thunder & Rain instead.
We ask "Why? Why God?"
Every thing has it's reason.
God has a reason.
He wants us to see the Rainbow that's awaiting for us after the Rain.
Because He knows that the Rainbow is way much better than the Sun.

My Rainbow, is still waiting for me.
Hold on, Rainbow.
I'm coming, I promise.

My choice of colour for this year's Raya.

:)




2nd Day:-


:)

^That is how it looks like.

The Terawih place under my granny's flat.

I simply love spending my night there mixing with the Grandfathers.

They give me advices that really make me ponder deep throughout the night.

^ My Lovelies. My Bestfriends.

I never get bored with them.

Neither does the boys get bored with "Syu" on Shad's tv screen that night.

Ms. Flower was simply too shy to pose at the KOI Bubbletea store.

Thanks for the "Birthday" treat.

:)

^ If it's fake.

That's the reason why it's hard for me to smile this days.

& then people would concernly approach and ask,

" What's wrong Syarif? Are you Okay?"

As that clearly shows how jovial i've always been before this.

"Syarif, the guy with a smile."

So let's just say,

& Guess what?
It's just 1 week of my Busy Schedule.
haiyerr~

2 burglars. 1 big mansion.

Broke in, searching for each & every precious thing in the house.

& then we woke the big cats( tigers & lions) that were guarding the mansion by accident.

Spent quite some time playing "catching" with these "cats".

Eventually, these "cats" chased us around with 2 feet instead of 4!

So Cartoon seh! xD

In the end, we got away and managed to steal back home

the most valuable thing we THOUGHT.

Ice Cubes from the huge fridge!

Yeah, imagine Ice Cubes stuffed in those burglars' water proof sacks -_-"

Midnight passed.

I'm still awake.

So are you. Many of you!

& it means that all of us are lonely people.

-_-"

PPCDL Course. SPSU's ICE Camp. SPSU's Mr & Miss SP. Iftars(i don't know how many already).

Ramadhan Youth Camp. Sang Singa Purba's Muzikaraya & Malay Dances. Part-time work.

MEL Camp. SMA Outings. & knowing that there's MORE adding up last minutes now.

This is MY Semester Holiday.

& i choose to feel Happy about it.

Eventhough the tight schedule is gonna be a continuous exhaustion for me.

Let's just look at it this way;

:)

I'll still be counting on that very second.

Getting back what's mine that was left astray.

Leaving back what was meant to be, way long ago.

& hope it's gone forever.

Hopes everything's gone.

I meant, EVERYTHING.

My Favourite bunch of friends

are my Drugs.

Because they never fail to bring the smile on my face.

:)

It started good.

& got me out of my sleep immediately in a huge shock.
Scared. Worriment.
What the heck was it supposed to mean?
I couldnt think of anything else but the 1st thing i did right after was sms-ed her.
"Are you Okay?"

I wished i could stay asleep a lil longer to save that nightmare & turn it into a good dream back.
But like she said,
" It's just a dream, don't worry too much old man "

^I was tired & sleepy.

So i head to bed.

Lying on my bed, after a few prayers.

The last thing i told myself before i knocked off was,

" I want to forget about you please "

Tiring day enjoying myself all day.
Freight Link Express Trip.
Bowling.
Movie.
Shopping.
Pool.
Break Fast at Masjid Al-Falah.
& Dinner with Turhana :)

I know i've told myself before that i would never buy anything from Topman
because the design are simply so nonsense, plus it's a badly contaminated Matrep Brand.
But i just bought 2 long sleeve tops(that pic up there), a grey and a black one.
Simple enough for me to wear to school in a cold weather.
teehee :)


& oh boy, i was definitely happy to finally to meet my dear friend.
The sensible chats we had. Your advices & opinions.
I shall keep that in mind.
& then the "yapping" part.
I enjoyed it though cos it's really fun having a young nyonya who goes on & on
from one store to another till we covered the entire mall.
*that Espirit saleslady was giggling all they because you WERE really behaving like its your store!*
all i could say to her was, " I can never understand about Girls! "
* & the lady laughed nonstop *
LOL xD

You really made my day, dear friend.
Thank you very much!
& yes, your ben&Jerry after ramadhan aite Hana.
;D
(pics uploaded on FB)

^ that's how i'll end up now.
^.^

I'm becoming Heartless by the days.
& I don't know why.

Apart from having a HUGE problem with this Blogger.

Blogger is being such a pain in the butt!

I would have spent my entire day making one very long post.
I've got tons to share.
I've got a whole load of pictures to show.

But having problems handling with Blogger kinda spoils my mood.
So i managed to change my blogskin!
I really like this one.
But i've yet to upload some profile pics here n there.
It's okay, a lil more patience will do.
Today is just the 1st day of my holiday anyway.
& i still have 55days of holiday left.
Nevertheless, i have a very PACKED Schedule ahead of me.

All i can say for now is,

Miss Universe 2009 made up my day from the start.
But i'm kinda heartbroken cos Miss Australia didn't win.
Why everytime Venezuela, or maybe some latin countries would win.
Donald Trump biased i think.
Lol xD

^ See lah! She looks even Gorgeous with light make-up!

Let me get over all these School workloads first for now.

Then i'll post up a proper update yeah?
2 Projects due tomorrow.
I'm a living dead man now.
Get it?
xD

Mom said that i'm a good boy.
Mom said that i'm a strong boy.

I'm not Good enough, Mom.
& i don't think i'm strong enough to keep holding on.

Shower me some strength Mom.
I need it, badly.

Oh My Monday
I knew i was never prepared for my Monday.

I was there holding back each & every tears as long as i could.
Until i couldn't do it anymore in the end, you knew.
( told you, you were gonna get me infected )
& i replaced them with the best smile i could ever gave you
that moment.
For i knew i couldn't lie to myself this time. I couldn't pretend it's fine.
It was too much for me to bare.
I have to accept the truth.
Even when the truth was tearing me apart.

In return, i simply couldn't just leave you there in tears.
I couldn't just leave you with no words and blame you for everything.
That would have made things even worse for you.
That's not what i want.
I've listened to everything that i didn't expected to know.
& in return, i've said everything that i wanted you to know.
I hope you remember all those things that i've told you.
Because i really mean it, honestly.

People say,
When you love someone so much, you let her go.
If she comes back, she's the one.
I'll leave all that in God's hand.

& u might be wondering how am i doing now?
How have i been coping with things now.
I'll be fine.
& you know i'll always be there if you need me.
Forever Friends we will always be.
:)

Make sure u keep that very last promise i told you.
No more _________ for all the things that has happened.
Because you have millions more reason to smile than i do.
I pray & wish you all the very best with him.
& make sure u keep smiling, because you have him.
Smile Auntie, Smile
:)

A friend once said that i'm the kind of person who always
put someone's else feeling before mine too much
when it comes to something that i really hoped for from that person.

Another friend said that perhaps i'm being to sweet and soft instead of
being a lil more aggressive and persistent.
Too much being around in the "safe zone".

To the extent that i would eventually sacrifise my own feelings,
just to make sure that someone doesn't get disappointed.
& eventually i give in, and end up suffering myself for not getting it.
They said, i should be a lil more fair towards my own self rather.

I like having these few close friends who really understands me.
& most importantly giving me honest perceptions of me.
That sometimes made me realise and reflect on myself.
A part of it, motivation. Something that i really need.

I say,
I'll have to admit that i'm a lil weak emotionally when it comes to this.
The things i do all these while, are simply just me.
I can't be someone else.
Like i've said, i don't wish to push things too hard on you.
Because it'll simply gonna make things even worse for you.
Isn't it true?
(& there i go, putting myself after you)

Stop being sorry for me please.
What's done is the past, remember?
Takecare of yourself.
:)

MR. TOO NICE :



credits to Wano, she got it from tumblr for me.

& to think of it.
I kinda feel glad yannow. Because i'm just a Mr. Nice Guy instead of Mr. Too Nice.
Because some parts of the details up there doesn't applies to me.
:)

Busy as a bumblebee.
Oh no, i'm not going from "flower" to "flower".
I'm just busy with my schedule.
Part of me loves it. Being able to mix around with lots people.
But another part of me hates it as well.
I hate having to turn down offers. Especially from the love ones.
I'll get this problem fixed.
I'm on a hiatus people.
Just be patient.
:)

Muzikaraya was a Blast!
Pak Eh was enjoying every second on and off stage!
Each & everyone of us definitely did have one hell of a night!
Drama Theatre, acting live in front of hundreds of people.
Way much challenging, having to interact with the audience.
To make them feel how you feel.
The Anger. Sadness. & especially the Laughter.
Almost all the cast were first-timers.
But we managed to pull it through!
I'm so proud of everyone!
Definitely, one of the best memories i had so far in Poly life :)
^Those days when we trained really hard.

^ Hours before the show

^ My Gerek personal Make-up artist.
Dirt Bike Dude.

^ My favorite motivator.
Always with her, " You okay or not Syarif?"
Arrrrrr
xD

^ Now that's why i call a last minute script re-cap.

^ & that's what i do to destress at the back stage!

^ Syarif as Pak Eh


^Sang Singa Purba a.k.a SSP

However, on a personal note.
I went back home reflecting on my performance all night.
It feels really good to get lots of compliments from those who watched me.
From family, friends, veterans actors.
Muzikaraya was also a platform for me to determine where i stand.
Oh boy, i must admit that i have lots of things to learn from.
Improve myself, to reach a way much higher standard.
Somewhere people expect me to be some day.
That's my goal.
:)

Now school is back for me!
Kinda weird though starting 1 week later than the rest.
Missing those days during the holidays.
Spending time practicing from 10am till 10pm every single day.
Wonderful experience. Fantastic bunch of people.
Now that's what i call expanding my Network larger.
I'm loving it!


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I love random stuffs.
Who doesn't?
My random meet-up with my dear Turhana yesterday was really great right?!
Head up to Clarke Quay after school to meet her after her work.
The long chit-chats and catching up.
Oh boy, we do have lots of stories to share didn't we?
Now that's the reason why i never get bored with my Hana.
She's the one i know who's matured enough to share opinions n stuff.
My decade friend. One of the longest friend i have up till now.
From the kindergarten us, to the all-grown up young adult.

Its good that we're still holding a bond together ever since back in Kindergarten, thas like a decade ago! :) All grown up eh? And that we're able to share secrets and our life experience without being so shy and awkward.

I shall find another day to make myself free for another meet-up yeah?
No worries!

That's for now readers
:)

Greeting Readers!
It has been really hectic for me during this Semester holiday for me.
Really busy, packed schedule like i've mentioned before.
& its all about the Priceless experience, Fabulous Fun & Wonderful people.
I've told you i've got a bloody tight schedule right?

Where shall i start?
Each & every single event was something that i was really looking forward to.
& i'm greatfully glad that i enjoyed every single moment of it!


Last But not least the most important thing of all.
The reason why i come to sch almost every day from 10am to 10pm.
Sang Singa Purba's Muzikaraya Production which is next Friday,23rd Oct.
The biggest event of my life, an opportunity for me to prove to my family & friends.
Something that i'm really interested in.
A potential talent, according to my seniors.
It's my time to shine.

More details about it? Check this out.
http://www.sangsingapurba.com
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=171305616334

I might have missed out some of the things i had somehow. Like all those random meet-ups & stuff at the very last minute. Im proud that i managed to handle the busy schedule. Although some of my friends felt that the schedule was like digging my own grave. Yes, it is really tiring and i am totally shagged. But it's not over yet!

& of course, there's so many other things that i had no choice but to turn them down.
Friends even had to schedule an appointment with me a week beforehand just to ensure i could fit it into my existing schedule. Some of them even had birthday surprises planned for me but it didn't happened all because of my busy schedule. It's really not nice replying to every single of them saying that i can't make it. & i'm really sorry for all that guys.
I'll try to make it up soon when i'm free.
:)
------------------------------------------------------------------------------

sometimes, even a song reminds us of the past.
a song that USED TO mean alot to us.
but when sometimes that song suddenly tunes up in ur shuffled playlist.
we wished that song never exist.
& now, its on repeat again.
it's just a song.
perhaps.

It was GREAT!

I've been gone for a week.

But when i came back, i still see all those nonsense stuff on my tagboard.

From the SAME OLD PEOPLE again.

(IP Address tells it all)

:)

Well it's really up to you yannow.

You bloody faggots are way gone together with my past.

I don't give a heck to a bunch of you at all.

Just a bunch of Toxic Friends I've had in the past.

You can still think that i'm the "Step Gerek" kinda person or whatsoever.

Still not satisfied?

Just take a look at these photos of mine taken from this week that i've been gone.

Just look at how happy that lucky guy is in that picture.

No Doubt, that guy in that pictures, is enjoying EVERY SINGLE OF IT.

Well there's more to come yannow & people still keep tagging pics on my FB.

To my Gerek Readers, stay tuned for more pictures and a proper post of my wonderful week.

Kudos!

^ Earle Swensen

^ Rock Chiq

^ FZL Dude

^THEY, are the ones that make me smile and
left me with tears of Joy on my festive days.
Lotsa Love my sisters.
:)

I wonder WHY.
I still wonder why...

I am being myself, the Syarif i know.
All sorts of effort being put in.
With full sincerity from the bottom of my heart.
In order to Impress.
In order to Gain trust.
In order to Prove who i am.
In order to Win the hearts.
Of any particular person.

But the fact that i've always fail to achieve it.
Instead, it's the community/people around that particular person.
I'm trying my best to earn your trust.
But I never managed to get that.
But to the whole lot of others, i'm good enough that someone like you could ever ask for.
Why can many of them see that, BUT NOT YOU?
What issit about me that you are not convinced yet?
What?
Why?

Oh God, why is it so difficult for this particular person to see it?
Instead, it's the others that are way much convinced.
They are the ones whom i never expect to understand me, did.
But you, whom i've been hoping for, never could.

What's even worst?
There's more than just ONE particular person i'm facing now.
Situations are simply the same again & again.
The ones i expect much never did.
But the others around me are the ones with positive response.
Should i feel way much relieved?
Knowing that the world understands and agrees with me,
but still not those whom i've expected to.

Save Me From Myself.
As a Son to a Mother.
As a Son to a Father.
As a Grandson to a Grandmother.
As a Brother to the Elder one.
As a Nephew to an Uncle.
As a Friend to a Friend.
As a Humble Boy to a Precious Girl, like you.
As Syarif.


We ask God for a Sunny day, but He gives us Thunder & Rain instead.
We ask "Why? Why God?"
Every thing has it's reason.
God has a reason.
He wants us to see the Rainbow that's awaiting for us after the Rain.
Because He knows that the Rainbow is way much better than the Sun.

My Rainbow, is still waiting for me.
Hold on, Rainbow.
I'm coming, I promise.

My choice of colour for this year's Raya.

:)




2nd Day:-


:)

^That is how it looks like.

The Terawih place under my granny's flat.

I simply love spending my night there mixing with the Grandfathers.

They give me advices that really make me ponder deep throughout the night.

^ My Lovelies. My Bestfriends.

I never get bored with them.

Neither does the boys get bored with "Syu" on Shad's tv screen that night.

Ms. Flower was simply too shy to pose at the KOI Bubbletea store.

Thanks for the "Birthday" treat.

:)

^ If it's fake.

That's the reason why it's hard for me to smile this days.

& then people would concernly approach and ask,

" What's wrong Syarif? Are you Okay?"

As that clearly shows how jovial i've always been before this.

"Syarif, the guy with a smile."

So let's just say,

& Guess what?
It's just 1 week of my Busy Schedule.
haiyerr~

2 burglars. 1 big mansion.

Broke in, searching for each & every precious thing in the house.

& then we woke the big cats( tigers & lions) that were guarding the mansion by accident.

Spent quite some time playing "catching" with these "cats".

Eventually, these "cats" chased us around with 2 feet instead of 4!

So Cartoon seh! xD

In the end, we got away and managed to steal back home

the most valuable thing we THOUGHT.

Ice Cubes from the huge fridge!

Yeah, imagine Ice Cubes stuffed in those burglars' water proof sacks -_-"

Midnight passed.

I'm still awake.

So are you. Many of you!

& it means that all of us are lonely people.

-_-"

PPCDL Course. SPSU's ICE Camp. SPSU's Mr & Miss SP. Iftars(i don't know how many already).

Ramadhan Youth Camp. Sang Singa Purba's Muzikaraya & Malay Dances. Part-time work.

MEL Camp. SMA Outings. & knowing that there's MORE adding up last minutes now.

This is MY Semester Holiday.

& i choose to feel Happy about it.

Eventhough the tight schedule is gonna be a continuous exhaustion for me.

Let's just look at it this way;

:)

I'll still be counting on that very second.

Getting back what's mine that was left astray.

Leaving back what was meant to be, way long ago.

& hope it's gone forever.

Hopes everything's gone.

I meant, EVERYTHING.

My Favourite bunch of friends

are my Drugs.

Because they never fail to bring the smile on my face.

:)

It started good.

& got me out of my sleep immediately in a huge shock.
Scared. Worriment.
What the heck was it supposed to mean?
I couldnt think of anything else but the 1st thing i did right after was sms-ed her.
"Are you Okay?"

I wished i could stay asleep a lil longer to save that nightmare & turn it into a good dream back.
But like she said,
" It's just a dream, don't worry too much old man "

^I was tired & sleepy.

So i head to bed.

Lying on my bed, after a few prayers.

The last thing i told myself before i knocked off was,

" I want to forget about you please "

Tiring day enjoying myself all day.
Freight Link Express Trip.
Bowling.
Movie.
Shopping.
Pool.
Break Fast at Masjid Al-Falah.
& Dinner with Turhana :)

I know i've told myself before that i would never buy anything from Topman
because the design are simply so nonsense, plus it's a badly contaminated Matrep Brand.
But i just bought 2 long sleeve tops(that pic up there), a grey and a black one.
Simple enough for me to wear to school in a cold weather.
teehee :)


& oh boy, i was definitely happy to finally to meet my dear friend.
The sensible chats we had. Your advices & opinions.
I shall keep that in mind.
& then the "yapping" part.
I enjoyed it though cos it's really fun having a young nyonya who goes on & on
from one store to another till we covered the entire mall.
*that Espirit saleslady was giggling all they because you WERE really behaving like its your store!*
all i could say to her was, " I can never understand about Girls! "
* & the lady laughed nonstop *
LOL xD

You really made my day, dear friend.
Thank you very much!
& yes, your ben&Jerry after ramadhan aite Hana.
;D
(pics uploaded on FB)

^ that's how i'll end up now.
^.^

I'm becoming Heartless by the days.
& I don't know why.

Apart from having a HUGE problem with this Blogger.

Blogger is being such a pain in the butt!

I would have spent my entire day making one very long post.
I've got tons to share.
I've got a whole load of pictures to show.

But having problems handling with Blogger kinda spoils my mood.
So i managed to change my blogskin!
I really like this one.
But i've yet to upload some profile pics here n there.
It's okay, a lil more patience will do.
Today is just the 1st day of my holiday anyway.
& i still have 55days of holiday left.
Nevertheless, i have a very PACKED Schedule ahead of me.

All i can say for now is,

Miss Universe 2009 made up my day from the start.
But i'm kinda heartbroken cos Miss Australia didn't win.
Why everytime Venezuela, or maybe some latin countries would win.
Donald Trump biased i think.
Lol xD

^ See lah! She looks even Gorgeous with light make-up!

Let me get over all these School workloads first for now.

Then i'll post up a proper update yeah?
2 Projects due tomorrow.
I'm a living dead man now.
Get it?
xD

Mom said that i'm a good boy.
Mom said that i'm a strong boy.

I'm not Good enough, Mom.
& i don't think i'm strong enough to keep holding on.

Shower me some strength Mom.
I need it, badly.

Oh My Monday
I knew i was never prepared for my Monday.

I was there holding back each & every tears as long as i could.
Until i couldn't do it anymore in the end, you knew.
( told you, you were gonna get me infected )
& i replaced them with the best smile i could ever gave you
that moment.
For i knew i couldn't lie to myself this time. I couldn't pretend it's fine.
It was too much for me to bare.
I have to accept the truth.
Even when the truth was tearing me apart.

In return, i simply couldn't just leave you there in tears.
I couldn't just leave you with no words and blame you for everything.
That would have made things even worse for you.
That's not what i want.
I've listened to everything that i didn't expected to know.
& in return, i've said everything that i wanted you to know.
I hope you remember all those things that i've told you.
Because i really mean it, honestly.

People say,
When you love someone so much, you let her go.
If she comes back, she's the one.
I'll leave all that in God's hand.

& u might be wondering how am i doing now?
How have i been coping with things now.
I'll be fine.
& you know i'll always be there if you need me.
Forever Friends we will always be.
:)

Make sure u keep that very last promise i told you.
No more _________ for all the things that has happened.
Because you have millions more reason to smile than i do.
I pray & wish you all the very best with him.
& make sure u keep smiling, because you have him.
Smile Auntie, Smile
:)

A friend once said that i'm the kind of person who always
put someone's else feeling before mine too much
when it comes to something that i really hoped for from that person.

Another friend said that perhaps i'm being to sweet and soft instead of
being a lil more aggressive and persistent.
Too much being around in the "safe zone".

To the extent that i would eventually sacrifise my own feelings,
just to make sure that someone doesn't get disappointed.
& eventually i give in, and end up suffering myself for not getting it.
They said, i should be a lil more fair towards my own self rather.

I like having these few close friends who really understands me.
& most importantly giving me honest perceptions of me.
That sometimes made me realise and reflect on myself.
A part of it, motivation. Something that i really need.

I say,
I'll have to admit that i'm a lil weak emotionally when it comes to this.
The things i do all these while, are simply just me.
I can't be someone else.
Like i've said, i don't wish to push things too hard on you.
Because it'll simply gonna make things even worse for you.
Isn't it true?
(& there i go, putting myself after you)

Stop being sorry for me please.
What's done is the past, remember?
Takecare of yourself.
:)